As I worked his songs played for me. The song that played in the first movie we saw together. The song we danced to at my wedding. The song that reminded him of the kind of father he didn’t want to be. The song that reminded me of the kind of daughter I wanted to be. The song that played when I’d watch him smile playfully at my mom, with an ease and weightless care like I imagined he did when they first met, unable to even speak one another’s languages. The song I’d play after he grounded me. The song that played as he drove me to a sleepover, the lyrics muffled to his ears but clearly in tune with my teenage heart. The song that makes me think everything will be ok, even when its currently not. The song that played when he took me to visit a potential college, willing to help me explore even though it was the furthest away from home. The song that played at our first concert together. The song that inspired his nickname for me, and that years later I’d sing to rock my son to sleep.
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