What started as two perpendicular lines, resulted in something with flow and movement. There may be some fixed parameters for each of us - but what do we create given that, even with that, despite that, because of that, emboldened by that? I’ve been hesitant to say it directly here, so I usually walk around it in my letters. In person, one on one, I’m not afraid to talk about it, but haven’t felt able yet in this format. I would like to say it now, here. I am a survivor of abuse. My work these past years has largely been informed by understanding and processing this. Of exploring safety, trusting, belonging, prioritization and worthiness. Inside the yellow box, the lines are straight. A fixed parameter. Beyond is everything else that I can choose to see and be, all the ways I can move. Fixed and flowing. Bending and boundaries. Order and opportunity. Fine lines and dandelions. One of our greatest freedoms is choosing how we respond. To me, that sounds fine and dandy.
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